Thursday, June 13, 2013
I spent a great deal of time last night complaining to my husband. I do try to keep that to a minimum. However, if I didn’t get it all off my chest, I could have spontaneously combusted at any moment. To avoid the flying debris from my explosion, my sweet man listened as I unloaded every complaint from my hair to my writer’s block to my guilt of poor parenting. (Also, to my mourning of my childhood home. I will share that with you next week when my emotions are once again under control.)
As a quick side note, my man once again showed me why I fall in love with him over and over on a daily basis. He did the husband-thing REALLY well last night. I can honestly say he is ALWAYS a good husband, but sometimes he even out-does himself. If that makes sense.
But back to point. One of my complaints of my poor parenting is I have not been enjoying my children this summer. Granted we are only 2 weeks into our summer, but still. I have been so stressed about finishing my book, which should have already been finished, that I have not appreciated having the kids home with me.
I truly was looking forward to them being out of school. We were all mentally exhausted from the last month of school, and so ready for this downtime. But now that we are here, I have not enjoyed it. I mean, really enjoyed it. I have not been writing as much, but spending time with them instead. Which would be a good thing, except, when I am with them, I feel guilty and stressed I am not finishing my book. So my mood isn’t playful and light, but impatient and somber.
After my half-hour ranting to JW about all of this, then listening to his calming words, I made a decision. I was going to enjoy the kids. Regardless. I was going to be present with them. And today was a good day. It is a good start to daily being present and happy. They will only be this age once. And time is going extremely fast. I don’t want to miss a moment of making memories with them.
We started with a hearty breakfast and a visit to the library. Where we ended up staying for 2 hours. Who would’ve thought?
Anabelle sorting through her book selection at the library.
I made their favorite foods for lunch – yes, unhealthy food – and then we went swimming. The kids are in SBO this week from 6pm to 8:40pm all this week, so they are having a blast each night. (SBO is our church’s Summer Break Out; our version of Vacation Bible School).
A great shot of Anabelle hitting the water. She is learning to swim this summer without floaties. She is doing a fantastic job and is very brave. It is a blast to watch her venture out a little further, gaining more confidence with each jump.
Seth, my transparent-skinned child, jumped off the diving board and landed perfectly on the air mattress. Of course, you know what happened next. But it was cool while it lasted. He has OU shaved into the back of his head and when it is wet, it appears highlighted. Now, that is a true OU Football fan. I didn’t catch it at first, but Seth’s hand looks like he is picking up Cooper by the head. Cooper is several feet behind him, but that is funny.
I taped some great video of Cooper jumping off the diving board, but….sigh…I can’t get it off my phone. Still working on it. But seriously, there is no cuter kid in a pair of goggles. His little ears – which already stick out – are scrunched out to the point I think they may inhibit his swimming by catching more water. Absolutely the best.
I feel like JoePhotographer getting this shot. Not bad for a camera phone, huh? Granted his form may need a little work, this is a very cool picture. Every teenage boy needs a picture of himself in mid-air. I see a new profile picture for his Facebook coming soon.
Yes, even I had FUN. Maybe when the water warms up, I will get a shot of me in mid-air, too. Then I would be the coolest mom in Johnson County. And yes, my picture is cropped and reduced on purpose. You didn’t honestly think I was going to blow up a picture of me in a swimsuit this early in the summer? Seth gets his transparent skin from one of his parents, and it isn’t Dad.
Today was a good start to enjoying the kids like I should. I know every day won’t be perfect, and I will let stress creep in sometimes. But I hope I am aware when it does so I can re-focus on what is important at this time in my life. Today, at this time, I will choose to play with my kids. And truly enjoy them.
PS – Tell me God doesn’t have a sense of humor…my scheduled Bible reading today included Philippians 2. Yep. It did. Verse 14 says, “Do everything without complaining or arguing….” Geez. Loud and clear.